Screw my oral really badly.
Czh was like totally answering a part for me and I'm like ._. 

Cca tmrw )-: 
Seriously I rather go for cl remedial than cca...
I cannot wait for all these to end. I want my june hols. I've got so many things to do. 
Ahhh no cca after next mon :-D :-D :-D 

Anyway I randomly thought of EllieWhillie and I miss L a lot. 
I wanna catch up with pri sch friends during june but I think it'll be awkward. :-/

I want peace at home. I really do.
Just stop it already. I have a feeling that something bad is gonna happen.

The worst feeling in the world is when you know someone's troubled and you can't do anything at all. 
i just want everything to be okay. 

Wanting, if you're reading this, I love you. Please be okay, erase those thoughts and live life happily. 

I don't see the point so I wanna quit. I don't believe in learning for exams, then wth is the use. 
Like I'm doing it all for the sake of exams, which I know for sure I'm gonna fail, no point right.
I'm obviously gonna fail. Even if I pass, so what? Big deal.  
It'll just start over again. And then what? I don't even know. 
It's not as if I'm gonna make a living out of it. Hell no. No way.
I'm gonna forget every single crap by then. In fact I don't even know a thing now. 
How am I gonna pass? Don't tell me to put more effort in it cos I have zero interest.  
This has nothing to do with challenging myself and stuff like that.
I don't like it, I don't do. So just let me quit. 
I rather spend time doing things that actually interest me and I don't think there's anything wrong with that. 

I should be doing this out of interest, not because of some stupid exams that you all want me to pass.
Do I even want to pass? If I pass, then okay I'm lucky whatever, but it's still not going to interest me, I'm still gonna have that sucky attitude, I'm still not gonna put any effort in it, it probably was just a fluke. So no, I don't care if I pass or fail. It doesn't even bother me now. It used to, coz I don't wanna disappoint anyone but not anymore. I don't wanna do this for anyone. I wanna do this for me. 

Don't try changing my mindset coz I'm stubborn that way. 
And it's not even gonna be a major difference, I'm not quitting it entirely. I just don't wanna take exams. 

March hols passed too fast. I don't wanna go back to sch. 
It's another 10 weeks of mugging coz my class is smart like that. -.-
It's another 10 weeks of no fun coz 3b isn't 2e.
I don't ever want tmrw to come.

I think I really gotta be more than okay with 3b coz I'm stuck with it for 2 years. 

Yesterday was awesome ♥

Had ptc and I convinced my dad not to go coz talking to czh won't help. I mean, so what if czh complained to my dad abt my horrible hcl marks? So yeah I went back to collect my results. Turns out I had to talk to my coform. Obviously the whole session was about hcl -.-

Anyway I went out with cherie kjn wanting gary & qian yu after that. I had so much fun ok it was so much more fun than the lunch on sat because of all the retarded dares :-D

Ok i love all my friends bye.

(9.45)
Wtf im randomly missing china )-: 

Maybe it's because I'm scared to fail.
Maybe it's because I'm scared to disappoint. 
Maybe that's why I like being right here, in my comfort zone. 

I need to get over my random moodswings coz people think I'm pissed when I'm just zz.
Just fyi, I don't get pissed off with anyone. Only at my sister and a lot of times at my brother. But otherwise, I don't think so. 
I feel bad doing this to my bro. Okay im gonna change haha. 
My moodswings got a lot worse in 3B. Like I'm high one sec, zzz the other. ESP DURING PE. But that's coz wushu sucks. 
And I never really had moodswings last year? Coz I think I'm happy whenever I'm my frenz :-D
Not that I'm not happy with kimberly and see onn now. I love them a lot. 
And I need to stop getting frustrated and ranting to ppl how horrible my life is when I'm stressed. 
I need to learn to appreciate things more. 

LAST DAY OF SCH TMRW OMG YAY. CAN'T WAIT FOR MARCH HOLS.
Super busy during march hols though. 
BUT I DON'T CARE I MEAN IT'S A BREAK FROM AHS WOULDN'T ANYONE BE HAPPY?
Btw new ahs socks are super long -.- 

K BYE. 

Been super busy since cny. 
At least this week's gonna end. 3 test in a week is crazy esp when it's chem bio hcl.
Btw I think I'm gonna fail my hcl cos I didn't understand any shit written on the paper so yeah. 
And surprisingly, bio wasn't that bad.

3rd day of cny
Awesome I love my friends heh :-D
They came over to slack, camwhore and talk. 
And even after they left I had company so yeah :-D

Mon 
HIllary's house after school. 

Vday
I feel so guilty cos I only made cards for cherie hillary kjn wanting seeonn and kimberly. 
I like this year's vday coz _ and _ made it interesting :-D 

Today
Lunch @ tm safra after cl tuition with cherie hillary kjn wanting gary qianyu. 
It was very fun. And nice talking to all of them. 
I love lunches like this. Coz we were damn retarded. 
And and we were playing truth/dare and all the dares were stupid.

When I'm 21, I wanna go overseas with Cherie Hillary Kjn Wanting to celebrate adulthood.
And I wanna go to Las Vegas because we can finally enter casinos.
Then we'll fly over to Paris and Milan and shop, do spas, massages, manis/pedis, eat and stay in a 5-star hotel.
That is if we have money. Sucks if we don't.
And if Hillary ever becomes a musician, she's gonna reserve 4 tix for us to attend her concert. 
This is why I love fantasizing about things that probably won't come true. 
BYE. 

Sometimes I really question myself if I've made the right choice.
I used to get the kinda regret, kinda don't feeling. 
But I'm seriously having more and more doubts. 
Coz now I'm more and more convinced I'm not cut out for this. 
What if I hadn't made that choice.
Everything would be so bloody different. 
Fml. 

I can't wait for cny but I have like 4 tests after cny. Fml. 

Bio is killing me. If only I wasn't taking bio, life's gonna be sweet. 

Someone kill me now.
I totally messed up and I don't know what to do.